Breathing my Mind into Your Face

It’s 6:40 in the morning. My meeting is at seven. I had a full eight hours of sleep last night. I feel fantastic. Fantastic is me being in tune with the present. My mind isn’t racing to what is next or what didn’t go right yesterday. I will breathe deep and love myself. I will be honest and true. I will love others and experience everything. I will identify the most useful ways to use my time, then I will execute. I won’t be perfect and I will accept that as part of the journey. In the past my mind has been on to the next thing while the current thing is still ongoing, resulting in me missing a lot of things. Be generous of your time and money, do not worry if it comes back to you. No need for a karma tracker, you’ll only resent. Don’t let the ghost of dad tell you how much you could’ve saved. Do your best with the skills you have, be aware that many have specialized skills that are much more keen than your set of skills. Look to these experts for guidance. Do the next best thing because doing good feels good. Depression sets in when you’re sedentary. When you’re watching a show instead of writing something that is when you feel guilt. However, maintain balance. It’s okay to watch shows with life partner. We need more shared time. We’re regrowing our relationship from the beginning with a new social context. Now I’m a booze hater and self helper. But it’s not all of the sudden. Seeing T with 25 years of sobriety last night and her kids speak at the meeting, it made me realize i’m still in the infant stages. I’ve got a lot to figure out about gratitude and spirituality. But it’s happening. I’m being nicer. I’m seeing others as their own and not as someone to help me get my own.

I’m sad that KM died. He made everyone in his presence feel good. He gave his time and money ceaselessly to make the world a better place. He called everyone “legend”, had this awesome British / Irish accent, and a gleam in his eyes like he had been through everything the world threw his way and still decided the only way to go forward was to be a beacon of happiness and humor, to always help regardless of who was asking for it. I’ll be more like that legend today.